Chinese New Year EVE

I do wat i did as last year...

morning eat eat eat eat...

thn watch watch watch tv...

thn clean clean clean the house..

then as usual..

go eat PIZZA...

lol

thn have dinner with popo aunty uncle...but no gong gong...both dead=(

Then go another popo house..

then went out with relative and watch midnight movie as usual...

We watched All's Well End's well...

not bad not bad

HAPIHAPI=)

Due to some probs happen...

we force to stuck 9person in a VIOS..

AKAKKAKAK..

Memorable day...

after that,
go for loke loke then balik rumah=)

Then zzzZZZzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZ

Night Night...

Its 2:41am now..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR=)

She say i am childish,stupid,innocent,simple

today is tearing day too...

scold scold scold nag nag nag by she she she and her her her..

thn i cry cry cry

thn control control control my own feeling..

thn comsole my own..

lol

anyway..

i am so fine and ok now..

just wondering why the stupid alws appearing in my mind whenever i am sad..

And here is the pastor said today:

7 ways to be happy

-Never Hate

-Don't worry

-live simple

-expect little

-give alot

-alws smile

-have someone nice like me

YEAH...he is rite...and i did that oso wert=)

so everything sad will pass by soon again...

looks far babe=)

tats all for today..

as simple as makan nasi

^^

for babe PINKY

I just read her blog...

and know tat the stupid idiot useless AUN hurting her again....

feel so angry la..

until when only PINKY want to leave him la..

let me tel u babe,

"Living alone is better than rely on that STUPID USELESS GUY"

anywhr..

No matter wat, im still supporting u..

CHILL CHILL~~~

Another stupid scene that i see today again..

My Crazy Cousin that was onli 15 and so crazy in love..

Love until he use the knife and carve his gf name on the hand..

GOSHHHHHHHHHH..

He purposely wanna leave a scar on his hand.....

And his gf doin the same thing too..

wtffffffffffff..

His mom is so speechless and i think all ppl reali goes crazy because of love la..

DISGUSTING!!

Pity his mom to have son like this..

how pain is their parent's heart if thy see???

Born them and just see they torturing themselves because of love??

I can feel hw pain is their parents heart..

even me felt sad to see that too.

goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

HOLY SHIT

And then..

i wish i will not be like this one day too..

it is so suffering..

i wan to tell myself to love my own and take care myself everyday

i alws remember that!

never do anything STUPID

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HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

Seigi No Mikata

Just watch this dumbdumb lame drama..

hahhaha...

a japanese drama...

wth..

is damn damn funny and hilarous

Talking bout 2 different character sister...

devil and kind...

Nice Enough

Lame Enough

Laugh Enough

Fun Enough

I LOVE LAME DRAMA=)

My turn to EMO

I DUNNO WAT AM I DOIN RIGHT NOW LA..
So tiring now..
but cant sleep...
feel so pissed bcz of something...
growing fatter and fatter..
looks like a panda nowsaday..
working harder and harder without enough rest...
laughing without no matter wat feeling...
crazy like shit nowsaday..
being weird mayb but i dont reali realize...
being stronger and stronger..
Driving like a bull
hahha
ishx
Suddenly cry out all bcz just 1 thing..
crying alone again
lol
Extremely pain and hurt for my eyes=.=

Wat a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR....
im not going to celebrate tho..
cz im SITI Binti Mohammud=)

HAHAHHAHA

18岁的天空

18岁的天空

就由伤感，心痛，伤心，悲哀的开始。。。

虽然跟他在一起的时间是很短，

但却是我最爱最喜欢的一个。。。

他不会知道这一切，

因为他一直都感受不到。。

去年的今天，

我已在NS的第11天。。

挂念他真的很不容易。。

我从来就不爱在朋友面前哭。。
但是我却因他而在大庭广众流泪。。

我知道这就是爱。。。

我爱他。。。

我每天一见到公共电话就很开心，

因为能听到他的声音。。

听到他的声音，

我感觉很开心。。

时间一天一天地过去，

我还是照样每天拨电话给他。。

可他。。

已没像以前那么关心我了。。。

我真的很想知道他在干些什么的。。

可是，

他不善于表达。。

所以根本就不能沟通。。。

也许，

这就是我们分手的原因吧。。。

因为他，

我也在营里写日记了。。。

写下我从未感受过的感觉。。。

写下了在营里的痛与乐。。

日子久了。。

也许对那段伤感的感情淡了。。

心门就慢慢地打开，

看上了一个我很欣赏的人 A 。。。

A 是一个优秀的全体对长。。。

他办事能力就是与别人有很大的分别。。

这就是我们华人的荣幸。。。

开始还以为是欣赏

哪料到，我开始爱上看他了。。

我不想出馗。。。

我只是要我的男友Z。。。

可是，

他却一天又一天地不理采我。。。

我心很痛。。

还好有A，他每天都哄得我很开心。。

我发现。。。
这似乎是超乎了欣赏。。。

过不久，

我从NS回来了。。

第一天回来，就被他摔了。。

我感觉莫名其妙的。。

也很无辜。。

一切来得很快。。。

我知道，他离开我一定有他的原因。。

我尊敬他的意见。。

所以我又再一次被摔了。。。

所幸当时有A。。。

他一直陪我、哄我、爱护我。。。

有他在身边，感觉还蛮不错的嘛。。

可是因为Z，我不想那么快就搭上另一个恋情了。。。

我和A有着一个约定，

那就是6个月的考验。。。

我相信一段恋情并不是每天相见才能维持下去的。。。

所以我们开始了这个考验。。
这考验在头4个月都进行得很顺利。。。

就在第5个月。。。

第三者S就出现了。。

真是一个超级不知羞的女人。。。

利用了身体来勾引他。。

“男人是好色的动物”果然是对的。。

这事拖拖拉拉地走到了最后一个月。。。

最后弃权的人是我。。

我看错了他。。

他伤了我的心。。。

对他的欣赏与仰慕一点也不留了。。
之后的日子都有1010的数字出现在我眼中。。

那就是Z的生日日期。。

这1010的数字大概每天都会出现在我眼前。。

就是早晚10点10分。。。

每当望上时间，就是1010。。。

这是很令我搞到心烦得事。。。

我之后每一天的日子，

就是有他的影子配我渡过每一天。。。

不久，

就是P的出现。。

有考虑过这恋情，

可是却在短短的时间内，

一切消失

留下很好的回忆。。。

自从A的离开后，

我就没被爱纠缠着了。。

开始打开胸怀，

接收不一样的每一天。。。

心情开朗了多。。

虽然心里还是有着他的背影，

但我却不感痛苦了。。。

因为能够真真把一个人放在我心中是真的不容已的。。。

除了K，下一个就是Z 了。。

每一天，

我都会想起他。。。

想他并不痛哭，

但却很开心=)

我发现我想他，

会让我少了很多寂寞的时间。。。

他真的教会了我很多。。

虽然他狠狠地摔了我，可我从来没狠过他。。

他就是第一个让我想回头的感觉。。。

之后的日子，

就是一个强女人了。。

我想应该是吧？

我去到那里都可以独单一人。。。

我对爱情已没什么渴望了。。

就是要好好对自己，好好过生活。。。

现在我就是那种“有则有，无则无” 的人。。。

就是爱平凡的日子=)

至于Z就好好把他收在手心里吧。。。

至于家呢。。

我开始放下一切。。

会到了家。。。

把80％的心都归向家人了。。。

我终于了解到父母、家人的重要性。。

我不想走错一步。。

让自己遗憾一生。。。

尽管父母怎不讲理都好。。

我还是选择接收。。。

我了解到若每一件事都可以让一步的话，大家就不用这么辛苦了。。

我爱我的家。。。

没有家的孩子，真的一塌糊涂。。。

只有完整的家，才会造出幸福的小孩。。

当然，这也要有“爱心、忍耐、宽容、饶恕、仁慈” 来形成一个家=)

曾经我是一个不爱家的小孩。。

很叛逆，很坏蛋，根本就不想回家。。

但是你可想到，

当你有什么问题的时候，

你都只想躲在家。。。

父母总会伸出援手。。。

后来，

我身边真的发生了很多事。。。

让我有了很大的转折。。。

我不善于跟爸爸妈妈沟通。。。

可是我还是要对他们说：

“爸爸妈妈，我爱你！”

十八岁的天空

很平凡。。。

开始踏入了社会。。。

开始了我在学院的生涯。。。

在设计学院里。。。

我看见了很多种类的人。。。

总觉得每个人都跟我外面的朋友不一样。。。

那中感觉就想每个人都朦着脸 做人。。。

每个人都好象很有企图的心。。。

好可怕。。

刚开始，

还觉得很后悔。。。

我本来就不爱争执。。。

我最怕就是争执。。。

可是我告诉自己要逞强。。。

预备好面对前面种种的障碍与困苦。。。

我知道我自己的意志力是很强的。。

只要说好要做到就一定办得到。。

所以现在我一点也不害怕了。。。

我最爱就是挑战了。。。

今年，

身边朋友好象都过得不是很好。。。

大致上都是为了爱情而烦。。。

我看了很心痛。。。

虽然我不是他们，但我感受的到那种痛苦。。。

毕竟我也是过来人啊。。。嘻嘻。。。。

就是因为他们，

爱情与男人在我眼里不在是什么好东西了。。

我终于可以放下爱情的生活了。。。

我要保护我自己，爱我自己
让自己过得更开心。。。

一切顺其自然。。。

虽说如此，

但我还是每天想到Z。。。

他没让我感到痛苦。。。

反而把他放进心里，更能够保护自己。。。

更懂得如何拒绝其它。。

谢谢你Z。。。

想你是件美好的事。。。

记得有一次，

我体验到那种想念到可以误看到你。。

那天去酒吧，喝醉了。。。

我真的看到你！！！

当我看清楚，原来只是幻想。。

哈哈。。好特别的一次哦。。。

真高兴。。。

还有每次都梦到你，

让我很开心。。

原来爱一直在我身边。。。嘻嘻。。。

总结就是。。。

18岁，

变得超爱笑。。

变得超爽朗。。

变得很粗暴。。

变得很自然。。

变得更废。。

变得直接。。。

家人关系好!

人际关系好！

爱情运好！

学业好！

通通好！！！

健康好！！

ICHIBAN！！！！！！！！！！！！

WEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

再见18岁！！

我会记得你！！！

heartbroken

I can't resist all this love love stuff alr..
it makes me wan to shout out all thing to my blog now..
aiks..
its really non of my business la
i got no love life now
but i have tons of emo fren now...
while writing this blog,
thr is a guy tat not happy and finding me to chat on msn
another emo asshole beebee chatting with me since she broke up till now..
another emo klang fren sms me cz broke up with gf, same as ah bee case...
seriously makes me can't resist this and shout out all here..

MAKES ME EMO ..

I'm so happy rite now with my life la..
don't all emo emo emo emo emo emo emo la..
dak han mou si jou mehhhhhhh
What also confusing bcz of love..
no love will die mehhhhhhhhhhhh

Don't use me as a grievance machine la..
wan me tam tam tam tam tammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
tam is ok for me..
but tam u 100x,10000x oso no use..
thn i reali beh tahan la
i wan to emo rite now d..
can u guys pls just help help ur own huh??

PROTECT UR OWN LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I AM SPEECHLESS RITE NOW, EMO FRENNNNNNNNNNN

TO AH BEE

HaPpY BirThdAy BEE BEE!!

I know it may a hardest and sorrow birthday

but i'm still hope u can pass through this very well and handle it very well...

You are not alone when u facing this all problem

There is alws a way for u to solve this all..

I'm not suggesting u to die heart or wat...

i just wish u can alws think wise and solve this all unhappy stuff, not just this but everything

YOU CAN, YOU ALWS CAN, YOU MUST CAN!

Don't ever tell yourself U CANT, U CANT TAHAN, I DON WANT SUFFER..

This is what we actually have to face in life..

Just how u solve and face this problem...

If u can solve, everything will be so so fine

If u cant, u are making ur own suffer and harming urself

just make a choice babe,

nothing much to say here..

what i want to tell is alr told to u..

Everything is depends on ur own now..

anyway,

im truely wishing u have a great 19 yrs old...

Everything wil be fine babe,

we all alws here to supporting YOU

MUAXXXXXXXXXXXX

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!!!

New Year New Concept

Dunno wats happen to the world nowsaday..
all ppls around me are emo and emo and emo..
and i have to soothe them..
wth..
Im so tiring in this all..
Ppls nowsaday is so stupid..
all ppl become useless because of love..
Love is really blind..
i can't promise myself that i wont be the one stupid in the future too..
hahhaa
But i can promise myself that i will stand strong no matter wat
God bless me =)


Goshhhh..
They are ppls still complaining while i am posting blog..
This world gone CRAZYYYYYYYYYY~~~~
Can i just ignore??

While comforting themselves,
me myself being moodness too..
but it's still ok..
i find out something in my love life again..

The new concept of love for me..

S.A.S

Scan and Aim and Shoot

AHHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAA
To avoid myself getting hurt in love again..
I have to use this new concept alr..
wuahhahah
Like what i did when i am shopping..
Scan the nice shop and aim the nice stuff and PAY!
i don't really like wasting time..
so i walk as fast as i can..
hahaaaaaaaaa

and now,
is the time to start the new term..
time past so fast..
2weeks break gone alr..
Have to face the new term now..
so i have well prepare!!
o come..
challenge me babe!!=)

Last nite..
i got a chat with someone that i don't get to see alws..
im so happy..
im so satisfy..
im so relax...
im smile..
im laugh..
im weeeeeeeeeeeee=)
im really miss him much..
wish everything is fine with him=)
goodluck boy~
MISS YA LOTS

And then...
Wish all my emo emo fren happy alws=)))
wish u all get well soon!!
MUAXXXXXXXX

Love makes ppl blind

I am unhappy now..
I'm suddenly feel hurt once again..
Why want makes me tear again??
Why so called FREN can hurt u because of a guy??
The last time i was cry in front a fren was my old bestie..
because of a guy also...
This time..
another bestie is hurting my heart because a guy again..
wats realli love do huh??can makes everything goes so stupid and stupid and stupid...

LOVE IS HARMFUL THING

Im helping u but u're saying that i don't understand u and stuff
somemore reminds me all about last time..
You tot im really pass by all those hurtful thing??
who don't understand who now??
Always comparing who is more pity and worst in the LOVE
FOR WAT!?
everyone have their own scar left behind in their heart..
it doesn't matter who is more hurt in the different situation...
People who stand on the situation will taste more and knows more..
you just cant jugde it by ur own mind..

Saying that i didn't helps you??
it more hurt to me..
wats makes me go and help u if i am not caring u??
wats makes me go help u if i am not worrying??
wats makes me go help u if i am not your so called gud fren??
tot that i am so happy that u been dump by somebody!?
it seems like i am getting dump by someone now
the ppl who been dump by is u, NOT ME
why i am so suffering because of THIS!?

Im being so happy nowsaday...
Everything is just so happy for me now..
why are u so blind because of love and saying those stupid things to me..
Im realli hate this love love stuff la..
tiring in this..
Don't let me taste the sadness again plus this is not my LOVE LOVE STUFF now..
goshhhhhh

I BEG U..

PLS STAND STRONG NO MATTER WHAT..
NO MORE HURTING YOURSELF...
IF U CAN, JUST SHOW ME and EVERYONE THAT U CAN...
HELP URSELF, NOT TO RELY ON SOMEBODY ELSE ANYMORE...

Tasted to be a lazy person

WOW WOW~~~

didn't sleep for the whole nite...

When to club..

DRUNK LIKE SHIT...

So high so highhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~

HEADACHE HEADACHEEEEEE...

Today is jan 1 of 2009

the first day of 2009

And i be the maid for church today..

hahahha..

Due to nobodys wanna to clean up the church..

so me and my siblings have to do it...

LOL..

Im seriously a good philipine maid...hahahha

In the afternoon,

I started to be lazy...

lazing around...

Lay on the living room's floor...

turning around...

hahhaha...

so so so comfortable..

it's lunch time..

Mom asked to go out for lunch..

I told my mom tat i am lazy..

so out for lunch is cancel for the whole family..

hahhaa..

asked mom to cook maggie mee for me..

I asked mom to blend the maggie for me too..

so tat i no need to bite it..

LAZY LAZY LAZY..

HAHHAHA...

Somehow i fall asleep after lunch on the sofa..

then came to dinner time..

AAHAHHA...

SERIOUSLY LAZY...

Lying on the floor and eat...

takes about 1hour to finish the food..

WOW..

This the 1st time for me..

It feel so nice...

Cause i can't have a free time like this when school is opening again...

=((((((((((((((

Tat's all for today...

Tasted to be a lazy lazy ppl..

hahahha

SYOK SYOK

Pictures for New year eve and New year:

Before im drunk....camwhoring with beebee=)

After CLub...
It was 6am in the morning..
camwhoring and playing a fool with xian
HAHHAHAAAAAAA>.<
LAUGH LIKE SHIT

LOL

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODYYYYYYYYYYYY...
CIAOZ

01.01.2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

I GOT A EMBARRASSING MOMENT ON THE 1ST DAY OF 2009

WUAHAHHAHHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Though, I DON'T CARE =pppppppppppppppppppp

WATEVER~~~~