30/07/2009

Hold your tears
and be strong
silence
everything will be alright

28/07/2009

what's happened

  • busy life is still maintaining
  • last term rouching dress and beading for corset is fail
  • i fail myself
  • getting lazy and lazy due to some unreasonable thingy
  • nightmare alot
  • mummy still scolding and yelling everyday
  • tears still droping down
  • avoiding from heartache
  • have to redo the layout for Fashion Comm due to HER
  • im have mistake tho
  • jst knew someone's secret in the class, only i noe? surprising..hahha..sshhhh
  • missing angelbo and beebee alot
  • lately speaking alot with Mr. Yong=)
  • lately contact with AH SAN again
  • lately have so many lost contact person finding me suddenly
  • whats wrong huh
  • relationship with qad is getting closer
  • confusing tho
  • Stephanie birthday is today
  • Angelyne babe is having birthday party at poppy again
  • heng dais goin to attend for her non-clubling birthday party
  • 1more is sssshhhhh
  • totally got 3party to attend in a time
  • missing his smell again=)
  • Johnny is selected to I style KLIA, MIFA, and bla bla bla
  • Good luck to Babe Johnny
  • Im proud of you..haha
  • Left few hours to sleep now=(
  • 26/07/2009 LAT P luuu..haha
  • Kent Kent is back from Thailand for holiday!! =)
  • Having imbalance eating habit lately
  • people alws say i fat, BUT I AM NOT MA=(
  • This term have 1 evening dress, Futuristic Casual wear for Gold mobile, ARCS TAU FU research, DRD class draw draw draw, Photoshooting for editorial and duno mat mat mat d...
  • everybody feeling pressure..
  • But im feeling much more better than others term...
  • heart is free=)
  • and i so so watever in watever thingy
  • hahhaha.. like i care???
  • the pepet daniel henney is si beh handsome
  • but still cnt make me faint la~~
  • not enuf
  • I wanted to work work work
  • can i just work in the pub mummy?=(
  • so tat i earn more.. hehe
  • wondering wat is beebee doin now
  • Im freaking out of idea of thinking something important
  • How How Howwwwwwwwww
  • die die die die die die die looooo
  • Im became someone baby lately..lol
  • am i drunking this weekend??
  • afraid
  • Ciaopepet bought his dream fone d..
  • HTC TOUCH PRO
  • hahhaha
  • I wan one oso=(
  • Currently doing culture of Oaxaca, Mexico in my evening wear design.
  • BO GOOD IDEA
  • feeling towards tau fu is getting deeper and deeper
  • hahahhahahha
  • my skin pigmentation is getting worst and WORST AND WORSTTTT
  • somebody going to accompany me tonight to finish my assignment
  • HOHO
  • The DAMN Xiaotiantian is ruinned my group presentation
  • WHAT A BIG SHOCK SURPRISE..
  • WOW WOW~~~~
  • wat she trying to act a? i dunno...
  • just making me laugh...HAHHAHHAHAHHAHHAHA
  • feeling getting deeper and deeper again
  • MryongXX asked me nt to get hurt is most important...
  • ok gud i will:-)
  • Suddenly missing my hang dais ALOT
  • Zhen han is goin off to australia soon=(
  • Angel oso =(((
  • can i cry cry for my 2 important person in my life???
  • sob
  • Wish them luck and all the best la....hhhmmm
  • I LOVE THE WAY HE IS
  • ALOT
  • he mean ALOT to me:-)
  • u no ewho u are~
  • my life now is really full of guys
  • not only i realize
  • someone is so not appreciate with wat she have now..
  • and keep on complaining
  • i duno why this kind of women will stil living in this world
  • u have a gud education, a gud bf, a gud family, a peaceful life but u are still like a dumb ass.
  • such a BIG BIG BIG BODOH CHIKOPETPET
  • the japanese game show is so damn ki siao and funny
  • wuahahhahahhaha
  • johnny and gay lou is stil so into GEE GEE GEE
  • haven sien yet wor
  • even ciao pepet is started to dance tat, OMG
  • haha
  • siao siao siao
  • hello kokopetbotbotni, don kao me alr, i wont want u...
  • pointless
  • my pepet frens take me as a joke everyday...
  • non stop
  • wat is in my mind is my kaki babi...
  • hahhaha
  • My day is still laughing shouting every single day...
  • dressing like orang utan
  • even worst after come to this fashion scul..hahhahahhahahah
  • my day is still that happy although there are alot of tough thingy to pass by..
  • im still happy with this life
  • i love it..
  • and i just wanna to appreciate it every single minute..
  • SMILE SMILE SMILE~~~
  • ntg is comin in my brain now..
  • continue next time
  • sleep sleep
  • MUAKMUAKMUAK

10/07/2009

Romance in Horror












七上八下

突然感觉很心痛
我不懂我在干嘛
我也不懂他在干嘛
我不想再继续这样了
明明知道结果了却要盲目地走下去
明明知道再这样走下去伤的是自己
可是还是笨笨地步行下去
我从前的理智又跑去哪儿了啊
每天我都要装着若无其事的样子
若无其事的言语来沟通
可是你都不知道我的心情到底是如何啊
我又想哭包了
你到底知不知到啊
我不想这样了
我好像被很多很多的东西缠绕着
我不想再想了
可是这种感觉又在慢慢地刺进我的心
真的很不好受
我不想告诉你
我不想你觉得内疚
不想你觉得难受
一个人难受总比两个人难受好吧
我的心情很糟糕
乱七八糟
很想好好地处理这件事
可是又想保留原装
我暂时都不想有什么改变了
好好地珍惜就是我现在所要的吧
每天只能安慰自己没事的
恐怕有一天我已经忍受不了
我会哭死
我不是你所看的那么坚硬
我毕竟也是女生
我也会伤心难过
可是我更加不想看到你难过
你我之间真的是
能遇见你已经是一个奇迹了
一个很大的奇事了
我们之间真的有太多太多的碰巧了
我很累了
我不想又背着伤心渡过我的日子了
我要开心
我不要哭包
我要控制自己
我要保护自己
希望同时也能保护到你的心情
我不要再想了
顺其自然对吧?
我要好好地休息了
晚安