dear diary,

• as usual i went to church this morning
• i dont feel like eating the whole day because of my braces=(
• i can't bite=(
• only have some taufu for my lunch
• i don't feeling well too
• my stomach feel a little bit weird
• dunno wats wrong
• i slept the whole afternoon=(
• but i did my assignment too=)
• night time, i didn't go out to popo house
• because i cant eat and i also wanna to do my beading
• i only have soup and 2 eggs for my dinner=(
• i used 6hours to do part of my beading
• goshhhhhhh
• i goin to die~~~
• something make me high tonite
• it was a gossip of my brother and his gf
• its gossip bout mine but not a bad things
• she send msg to my brother
• "xxx: i so admired your sister..she so slim, can wear everything that she like.she so smart, study so hard. She can draw, she can design...She got so many make up stuff and noe how to make up...and she got her own style...and she is so kind...if i'm like ur sister, u will love me more right darling???"
• HAHAHHAHHAHHAAHHAHHAHAH
• what make her say tat i realli duno
• goshhhhhh
• im a so call fei po in my college
• i am a stupid wan alws in the college
• I am so so so lazy with my studies
• I cant realli draw among all students
• my design sucks among all
• my make up stuff all missing pls...mana ada banyak
• make up cacat oso
• style??teruk like hell
• everybody noe i alws wearing my red colour stuff and with the pillow walking everywhr in the college lo...hahahhahah
• WTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
• nothings gud on me lo
• argh just kill me onli looooo
• but so watever oso la
• hahhahhahaha
• make me laugh onliiiiiiii
• not bad oso as least got ppl looks gud on me=)
• after awhile, my daddy turn me down again=(((((((((((
• i dun wanna say wat it is..
• but im realli down
• tmr goin off to genting
• just let the wind blow away all my sadness la~~~
• im so wish i can live somewhr alone now
• i really wan to live myself alone
• live in my own world
• ntg i can say d
• nitenite=*